Shimura Curves

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

The Worst Tarot Reading I've Ever Had

So I was actually going to come in today and post a positive blog entry, all about how I'd been to a great gig on Friday, and then gone to a great party on Saturday, and all about the interesting conversation I had with Galia and Pil about the dialogue between art and commerce (one of the first people I've talked to who actually had interesting things to say about the conflict between Indie and Pop which wasn't the usual sexist drivel) but instead I'm all bent out of shape.

It sucks to feel like you're being taken advantage of. It sucks feeling like someone is repeatedly violating your trust, and disrespecting you and your rights by continually not asking or obtaining consent for the simplest things. Consent, legal or otherwise, is such a tricky thing. It's the difference between sex and rape. It's the difference between a collaboration and a theft.

It especially sucks when it is in the course of a business relationship that you felt... cautious about from the very beginning. It feels like every single negative gut reaction is being confirmed. It makes me feel less and less comfortable with a decision I feel was forced upon me.

So, like the post-Jungian hippie chick I am, I did a tarot reading. And it's the worst reading I've ever seen. The Tower, the Ten of Swords and even Death. (Yes, I know it's usually a positive card, but not in conjuction with those other two.)

The first card, the significator, is placed in the center of the cross. This card represents the prime energy manifest in your life. Ten of Swords (Ruin): Crushing defeat brought about by idle intellectualism divorced from reality. Sadness and desolation in the aftermath of a catastrophic and total collapse. A decisive conclusion brought about through the swift and merciless application of overwhelming force.

The second card, placed above the significator, represents Air. It describes your spirit, process of thought, and the influence of reason. Three of Swords (Sorrow): Unsettling news leading to heartbreak or loneliness. Tactless or hurtful words. Acting without consideration for the emotions of others. Betrayal of trust or confidence. The revelation of a painful truth.

The third card, placed to the right of the significator, represents Fire. It describes your motivations, creative energies, and the influence of passion. The Lovers: A caring and trusting relationship. Beauty and inner harmony. A decision calling for emotional control and faithfulness to spiritual values.

The fourth card, placed below the significator, represents Water. It describes your emotions, meditations, and the influence of love. King of Cups: The essence of water behaving as air, such as a billowing cloud in the blue sky: Great maturity, endless patience, tolerance of other points of view, and a deep knowledge of human nature. One who intuitively knows the strengths of those around him, and gently cultivates them. Remaining calm and relaxed in all situations, and making artful use of diplomacy or a quiet word to resolve conflicts. The ability to listen to what another person is saying, and truly understand what is in their heart. A rewarding partner and a beloved leader.

The fifth card, placed to the left of the significator represents Earth. It describes your physical presence, position in life, and the influence of the material world. The Tower: Unforeseen catastrophe. An abrupt change, perhaps leading to a new lifestyle and enlightenment. May indicate a broken relationship, divorce, or failure in business or career.

At this point the cross is complete and the triangle is formed. The sixth card, placed on the bottom left of the triangle represents one of two opposing forces. Judgement: A swift and conclusive decision. The resolution of a matter long unanswered. A change in point of view, most frequently towards greater enlightenment. Final balancing of karma.

The seventh card, placed on the bottom right of the triangle represents the force that opposes the bottom left card. These forces may be external, but they are frequently one's own inner archetypes in conflict. Death: A major change or transformation, possibly traumatic and unexpected. Freedom from the shackles of the past. A new beginning. Death coupled with rebirth, usually related to consciousness and lifestyle.

The eighth card, the reconciler, is placed below the cross in the third vertex of the triangle. This is the force that will resolve the conflict between the bottom left and bottom right cards. By meditating on this force and bringing more of it into your life, you can bring the matter at hand to a swifter conclusion than would naturally occur. Knight of Cups: The essence of water behaving as fire, such as a rushing river: A passionate romantic, full of charm and beauty, but prone to extremes. Forceful idealism blended with gentle kindness. An eager and intense person, forward with their emotions and tender in their support of others.

The ninth and final card, placed in the center bottom of the triangle, represents the final outcome unless you change course. Four of Swords (Truce): A time of tranquility and intellectual repose in the midst of a great struggle. A temporary retreat from stress to regather inner strength, reaffirm convictions, reorganize thoughts, and formulate a new plan. The need for vigilance in a moment of calm. May suggest a withdrawal from the material world to find spiritual guidance.

Withdrawl from the material world to regather inner strength. Maybe I need this, because right now I don't want to do any of it. Not this gig this weekend, not the single, not Truck, not anything.


At 11:54 AM GMT, Blogger Mistress La Spliffe said...

It doesn't sound so bad. Or rather, it sounds like you think the present is bad and your subconscious thinks it can get better.

Oh tarot cards . . . oh post Jung. I'll stick to dream interpretation.

At 12:22 AM GMT, Anonymous Artemaii said...

Wataishiran, Shinansu! Omaiwa, Muda no hadou. Omaiwa, Satsu. Omaiwa, Artemaii.

At 5:23 AM GMT, Blogger Olive E. Thomas said...

After doing my own tarot reading thru, I always choose the "choose for me" option. I received a one card spread to my question, "What am I refusing to see?" The one card was the ten of swords. The term "idle intellectualism" stuck out to me so I googled it and came across this post. I realize that this was written in 2006 and I'm not even sure if this blog is still active, but.. I know I would like to know if someone read a post of mine written long ago and got something out of it. And, I was wondering if you had any more insight into this card? Regardless, I'm glad you wrote this post.


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