Bad Head

You don't know how much your medication is really working until you try going off it for a few weeks, and turn into a complete mentalist. Not good. Can't get more until Wednesday. Will just keep off the booze until this is sorted out, because two blackouts in just over a week is not a good sign.

Gig tomorrow and I'm feeling really not good about it. It's something more than nerves. Its the feeling that you've done something *realy bad* but you can't quite remember what. That real "Sunday Morning" sort of sense of overhanging badness.